my kid

Today I am hoping that my son behaves himself at school because im am drained….. Yes some of his actions are due to his father not being an active part / 1/2 active part or even 3/4 part of his life but he has has to know that he cant LEAN ON THIS LIKE A KICK STAND…….for the rest of his life.

I cant fix the issues……he cant fix them ALL but he can fix a few with his choices….. Im just so over it all right now…really I am….

For the last few months it has been not soo goo and most days during the week I have NOT liked my son too much…. I scratch my head so much until my scalp is bleeding trying to figure out how in the WORLD does a Christian raissed boy act the way that he does right through here….

I have tried some of EVERYTHING…. but let’s face it.. I am a woman and his mother and not a man nor his father…. it is like he wants me to MAKE his father do right by him and I cannot….  then the other issue is that he misses his older brother whom is already a totally different person. He lives with his father and the atmosphere and the things that he is allowed to do DOES NOT and will not ever sit well with me…. so spending ” too much time ” with my 9 1/2 year old wouldnt work either….

He needs strong, christian and CONSISTENT male figures in his life and right now that is not the case…. but my Lord is he driving me crazy… im just REALLY tired of the phone calls from school and at this moment I dont like my son at all…. ESPECIALLY because he knows better.

#LOVE – is a need

Yeah….yeah I am still feeling ” loved up” this morning….. so  many people have died that over the last few years that I am REALLY just grateful to be alive…..

Love is a very powerful GIFT that the human race was given and we have so disrespectfully taken the gift for granted…… we have LIFE because of LOVE!

Because for God so loved the WORLD….that he GAVE his ONLY begotten son! That is love…. it was done FREELY by choice….

I was sent this link below  this morning and I cried because it was so nicely done!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_g2NjvnXtI&feature=endscreen&NR=1

Talk about feeling goose bumps! Yikes….I surely did with this one as well  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4VmcCm58O8&feature=related

Yes, love is very important in our life…without love there is no life… and with NO LIFE…. you cannot experience joy, peace, love, happiness, success etc.

People it is not a cliche’ when songwriters make songs talking about people dying of broken hearts… I dont know how people cant believe that… when your heart is broken it can cause you not to tend to yourself and get you NOT in your right mind…

you can also become sleep deprived, stop eating, stop drinking, ( which can affect your body even the more if you are on any medications )  staying in the bed / the house, ( your body NEEDS sunlight ) a great deal of people dont know that …..

Pray, support, believe, endure, stand firm with those that you love… it is IMPERATIVE to give people their flowers while they can still see them…hold them and smell them!

A Simple Life Observation

 

 Do you ever wake up feeling just STONE COLD  amazingly blessed? Well I am NOT being silly when I ask that question because not until last year in April did I ” START “ having those moments! It sounds strange maybe to some but like I have stated before……..not until last year, I discovered that is when I started truly living.

I was so over consumed with church politics, church activities, positions and networking that I missed almost half of my life!

GEESH… Thank goodness for “waking up” in enough time to enjoy the other HALF of my life while I still can……..

Death is NOT prejudice at all!…..It does not worry about what you look like, how rich or poor you are, what social class you represent, what skin color you are, what religion you follow, what happened to you as a child, if you are smart or mentally challenged, who you know, what you have, what neighborhood you reside in etc…..

To be totally frank…. I now feel like a teenager who just started high school and have soo many dreams, hopes and aspirations via LIFE! Life is a gift that should be used in a productive manner and in doing so has the awesome possibility of blessing others,  giving you much joy / happiness and edifying God.

Summer Camps Accomplished!

Glad my day was blessed…… I completed a great deal of tasks today starting with 4 DIFFERENT Camps to send my son to starting in May and ending in August!

This will be our first time away from one another via multiple times BUT all of the camps are  Christian based, educational and promotes alot of morals, ethics and values that I teach in my home……

Also the biggie : MALE MENTORSHIP!!! My little man has not single ONE (consistent) MALE in his life….. Yes, no father, brother or uncle…..

Two weekends in May
One week in June
Two weeks in July
One week in August

So see ya Jared! Lol

It will grant me with a little bit of MOMMY time…… I wil be able to write hime letters, send cards, pictures and he can make phone calls….. Whew…I feel bad for feeling soooooo excited!

Hey, im excited and NOT ashamed! Year round I tote him to baseball, soccer, music, martial arts, swimming,basketball AND church 4 out of 7 days a week!…….

The martial arts he took since his was 4 years old and now he is almost 10 and he just asked to take a break from his Tae Kwon Do! Ummmm…….surely im happy and to be honest after 5 years of being there 3 days a week, we BOTH need the break!

and yes I said year round for all of these activities but basketball..that is only from January to April!

Single Parenting is a Huge job and this is the first time im rewarding myself in the form of TIME ALONE!