Only 1 Body Needed

  Perfect Wording for this photo I thought!

I need you, you need me. We’re all a part of God‘s body. Stand with me, agree with me. We’re all a part of God’s body.

It is his will, that every need be supplied. You are important to me, I need you to survive. You are important to me, I need you to survive.

I pray for you, You pray for me. I love you, I need you to survive. I won’t harm you with words from my mouth. I love you, I need you to survive.

It is his will, that every need be supplied. You are important to me, I need you to survive.

 

School Project

The enemy would LOVE to take any human being at any time…any moment and anywhere. If he can obtain “space” during childhood years, to him that is a prize to him. The early years…the growing years…the crucial years are CRUCIAL spiritually.

Right now in one of my Grad School classes we are focusing on deviance and how it happens. I am focusing my studies on HOW – WHEN and WHY it occurs.

This video is a sad but great example to explain and show that spriituality is apart of it. Look at her age and the things that are coming out of her mouth.

Mother -hood

From the time I was a little girl…. I have always been shown and told that I was special, beautiful, smart , a child of God and to always value my self worth….

I am an adult and I am still being told the same thing…. because the TRUTH lasts forever and does not sway!! I am indeed so grateful for what I have learned!

I have this AMAZING woman to thank for reminding me that MOTHERHOOD is a blessing but is also a challenge but God gives us grace! Whew….that is the trutgh!

 Now I am a mother & have experienced MAJOR trials / tribulations as a Mother with my teenagers but indeed God’s grace is the most beautiful things that a person can experience in LIFE! My youngest boy thus far has given me such a new outlook on motherhoood and life…..

 

A great deal of things I have learned about myself and without CHRIST, I surely would not understand this road!

Respecting – Appreciating Life

Respecting and Appreciating Life…….

From this past Tuesday evening until last night at 730 pm made me REALLY look at my life as a whole.. Talk about being traumatized!

Life is something that I earnestly do not feel that no one RESPECTS until something tragic occurs in their lives…

I am not even talking about losing a loved one… I am talking about when things happen via ourselves… It is a goal to try to go to sleep as well as wake up with no regrets…

I totally understand the clich’e to live every DAY like it is your last!…However, over the last few days – I would rather live every MOMENT as if it were my last.

When you feel as if you are about to die – sooo sooo many things REALLY DO flash in your mind and the space that you are in seems to be sincerely spinning out of control.

The first and ONLY word that came to mind was to say JESUS…which I did a few times…. and when you “have that REAL feeling” in the natural and in the spiritual that you are indeed dying…. It really feels / felt as if there is no going back! The next and ONLY line that came to mind was Lord, please forgive me of all of my sins and don’t let me be lost!

My son was standing there in TRAGIC UTTER FEAR because I have taught him that when you feel that you are dying…about to die…on your death bed…etc..etc..etc.. DO NOT THINK ABOUT SAYING – ” OH  MOMMY“

You better think…scream…say and feel HELP ME AND FORGIVE ME JESUS ONLY! Therefore, he obviously recalled all of our conversations because when I was not able to breath he freaked out but when I started saying Jesus… and Lord help me…. Jesus forgive me of whatever of my wrong doings… Oh God – do not let me be lost…

Well at this point – HE EXPLODED and started screaming and crying ..Lord please help my mom and don’t take her.

So even in the midst of my terror ..it was nice TO HEAR that my son knew God…respected the things that I told him of God and even BELIEVED the things because it surely showed. He cried out to GOD on behalf of me. It was bitter sweet…..

 Bitter because at those moments.. I knew that I was on my way off of this earth… and sweet because wow… what a sight to see and a joy to hear how my son was talking to the LORD.

He knows that mommy or grandmom cannot get him into Heaven.. he has to do the work himself. We can pray for our loved ones..especially our children but they have to do the work.

I recall having a conversation with my now teenage daughter that I may be able to get you an interview but you have to get the job on your own wording – choices – body language – etc. She has a part to play and her part is bigger than the one that I can do.

Yes! I am a saved and Christian – God – fearing woman…However, reality is that the no one is EXEMPT from falling even behind the “little things” that we find ourselves doing.

What we may think is small ….to God it is all HUGE – because he wants total change and indeed that is always my goal. Change for the better.

Thanking God for another chance….another try…at this thing called LIFE.

My 9 1/2 year old son …my mommy and sister is as well!!

Glad to just be alive on today….

Just a thought – “you do not ever want to be FORCED”  to be grateful…..

Trials as a Mom

I will ALWAYS need my son…. I tell him that no matter what age I am or what age he is! I advise him daily that he is very important to God and to ME!

Almost since basically the WOMB (spiritually speaking) my son has seen me cry – laugh – hurt – become angry – become bitter – praise God – get mad at God – repent to God – show my faith in God – forgive people – struggle – not struggle – have more than enough – not have enough – become an overcomer – be strong – remain a woman – be example – be meek – be disrespected – be respected – be misunderstood – be appreciated – being a mother.

My son has kept me going when I did not think at times when I could – it was because of God’s grace and his never ending strength, favor and love towards me that reminded me of my destiny and my son is indeed apart of it!

Will there be more bad times ahead? OF COURSE! Will there be more good times ahead? OF COURSE! Will we have God on our side? Our top? Our front? Our back? Our bottom? Our inside? Our outside? Again  >>> OF COURSE!

Welp…. we will and we are doing just fine ‘through it all”……. Parenting is really indeed a very COMPLEX assignment but I can do all things through Christ Jesus!

“I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me” Philippians 4:13.

Each trial is different but if you stay TRUE TO GOD – all of our outcomes will be the same! >>>  We shall all reign with HIM together….

sick

When I think of the status of my family as a WHOLE… it makes me want to constantly VOMIT…. and YES! I feel sick inside because we ALL should be doing better as a Family!

b I get so so tired of hearing that there are families / situations that are way worse than mine – YIKES…… Okay already! However, even if that is true….. I still want my family immediate / inner circle / outer cirlce and beyond to all be connected YET UNIFIED like we used to be… Sad thing about it is that it seems very apparent that besides my mother, one of my sisters and myself are the only ones who seem to even CARE!

What is that about God? I mean really……. I have gone through my mood swings that one month I try to get everyone back on track then I take 2 months to REGROUP and RE – COUP from all of the drama and adittudes from other individuals that have stressed me out during that time period… From siblings….to kids….to nephews…to aunts….to cousins…. to uncles.. I am so over it all.

I’m ….M-O-V-I-N-G …. O – N ….. but still staying “open” to what God may allow to transpire but I have my own life to endure!

Night Cap -

Self Destruction to me is when disobedience is displayed against God…..yourself then loved ones…. it does not mean that you have to be doing anything illegal but just even the little things can cause things in our lives to shift all in the wrong direction.

WELP!!!!!! 

Lord, some days my life seems just a tad bit crazy lately and via frustration and anger – I have intentionally failed You at times.  Yes, I know that this behavior via inner thoughts, anger and what can cause me to self destruct…..

People who say that they do not INTENTIONALLY hurt you but know they are about to commit a wrong that you would NOT be pleased with must know that is the SAME THING.

Nonetheless, speaking for myself…….I knew and know better, but I sometimes chose to do what I want. #sonotcool

Then there are other times, though not on purpose I assure you that my flesh has just not caught up to what my spirit man is suppose to be doing. Either way, I make no excuses. I deeply regret those failures. Thank You for Your unconditional love, forgiveness, and understanding. Help me to be stronger and choose wisely next time I have to make a choice. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Good Night Father….

Prayerfully you will ALLOW me to wake up and talk with you some more in the morning and try this process yet AGAIN!

Peace and Love…….

“ME”

before AND after

AFTER- accepting Christ

If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold all things are become new” (2 Corinthians 5:17).

Whenever any person becomes a new creature in union with Christ, he or she becomes a new person altogether. There is a whole new creation whenever a person comes to be in Christ. The effect is the old life is passed away and a new life has begun. Everything becomes new in Christ. The person who is in Christ and has experienced the new birth is a part of the new creation.

We are new creatures in Christ Jesus. There has been a re-creation in which God has given us a new set of senses, values, and spiritual principles.

BEFORE – knowing Christ

 

Before we were spiritually blind, now we see with spiritual eyes, and we see all things new.

Before we were spiritually deaf and we could not hear God’s Word, and now we have a new set of spiritual eyes and we hear and respond to the Holy Spirit.

Before our minds were in spiritual darkness, and we called bad, good and good, bad. Now we have the mind of Christ and we see the difference between that which is good and that, which is evil. Our minds are now being renewed day by day.

Before our hearts were hardened to spiritual truths, and we hated God and the things of God. Now God has changed them from hearts of stone to hearts made alive to the things of the Spirit.

Before we were spiritually dead, and now we have become new creatures in Christ Jesus.

Before we were a people without hope and now we have a living hope in Christ. Apart from the resurrected, living Christ we cannot have any true hope of anything beyond our grave.

Before we were without God in this world and now we have come to a living relationship with the one and only true God. We were separated from Christ and without God, but now we have an intimate personal love relationship with Him.

Prayer: Lord Jesus, we need you to help us realize that even though we may be broken we are still blessed in so many ways. Thank you for all you are doing during this healing process. In Jesus’ name, Amen

true then BUT Funny now

“I’m Moving On“

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons Finally content with a past I regret I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I’m at peace with myself I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long

I have MOVED on….

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces Each one is different but they’re always the same They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it They’ll never allow me to change But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong

 I have MOVED on…..

I’m movin’ on At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone There comes a time in everyone’s life When all you can see are the years passing by And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I have MOVED on……..

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t Stopped to fill up on my way out of town I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t I had to lose everything to find out Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

I HAVE MOVED ON…..

Whew…I’m so grateful that God has helped me to move on!!

Reason”S” 2 Forgive

Jesus forgave Judas……..

Jesus forgave Pontius Pilot……

Jesus forgave the Unbelievers …..

Jesus forgave the Priests…….

Jesus forgave the Soldiers……..

AND THEY ALL PLAYED A PART IN HIS DEATH!!!