YESTERDAY!!!! ……… The enemy almost had me jacked up! Yesterday I wanted to flip out!!! Yesterday I so needed my mother!!! Yesterday I needed a hug from my sister!! Yesterday I wanted to choke my son!! Yesterday I felt like not wanting to be my son’s mother!!!!! Yesterday I needed God to take the pain away!! The bitterness surely was on its way and I am glad that God “blocked it”…… ( that is a true blessing )
Yesterday I was so upset that I could not even cry!!!! Yesterday, God allowed me to go through a very STRONG AND STORMY situation and he then gave me the peace that I needed and allowed me to have and maintain victory over the situation!
Yesterday God reminded me that I have to regroup and refocus to keep my sanity…. Yesterday God advised me that He allowed all of these things that I felt were so bad to transpire… Yesterday God said.. all is well.
OH GOD!!! Is all that I kept saying out loud!I almost felt as if I was INDEED going to lose my mind and the ONLY thing that can shift me toward that direction is when it comes to “family matters/ situations”…..
Welp guess what! The enemy knows that as well so trust me when I tell you that he works in OVERTIME and OVERDRIVE in that area because he loves to see me breakdown…..
Listen as a parent – your kids will surely take “you there” if and when you allow then….. My kids ….my teenage twins have really put me through it since they were 12 1/2 years old and ask me if things has gotten any better?
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm… umm yeah like maybe like 3 months out of EVERY year that has passed since they have been that age! OH MY GOODNESS – HELP ME! For my teenage ungrateful kids to ONLY desire to reach out when it is a FINANCIAL thing is a sad thing.
It is a HORRIBLE….HORRID….HORRIFIC….UNBEARBALE thing to try and raise your children with another parent who has 100% DIFFERENT WAY of raising them but they are in their care. AGONY I tell you…COMPLETE AND STRAIGHT agony!
Of course children “rather” sway toward the mind set of the parent and their family that allows things to be a bit easier on them….. Mother or not – I have feelings and indeed to SEE that they do not care about that but care ONLY the feelings that comes along with my pocket book.
The children also have to take blame in the things that they have done as well as have not done through out this horrid process as well… Allowing his father to think “one way” when it is not the truth and my son not speaking up is basically “co – signing” with what the interperation of me in situations.
I have CARED what my teenage kids as well as their father and family have felt about me via parenting LONG ENOUGH…… at this point in my life I feel soo empowered to move on!
My teenage kids will turn 19 this July and I have not washed my hands of “them” but I am indeed allowing LIFE to take its course! I will continue to pray on their behalf but nothing more and nothing less…… I know that I am not the only mother who has NO RELATIONSHIP with their kids father but it is sad that two parents cannot come together and raise their kids.
I do not beleive in allowing kids “to run the show” and the course of the relationship styles of the parents! Well that is what has BEEN HAPPENEING over the years and of course I am the bad guy because I have ALWAYS stood my motherly / Christian ground! It does not feel good while it is working but I know that it is working for MY GOOD.
I feel so much better thanks to waiting patiently to hear the voice of The Lord speak to me…. I am well… all is well and I have peace within “again”….
Honor your parents – that is the Holy Scriptures and no success will come until they can learn to honor! Things may look good and feel good but trust me, God will “shut it down” when people least expect it. You cannot go through life not doing what you are supposed to do and feel that you are going to reap the harvest of The Lord!