NEVER – Forgotten

Mr. Nelson Mandela – died 95 years WISE –

Mr. Nelson Mandela – died 95 years WISE –

Helping Self...

Just Thinking –

I have been exposed to diversity all of my life but over the last 10 years I have reshifted my focus towards my OWN community. Was it right? No? Did I feel that I had just cause? Yes – the way that the COMMUNITY acts towards one another from within the COMMUNITY left me no choice but to mentally – physically – emotionally – financially – and sometimes even spiritually from the community.

However, after seeing a movie on August 20, 2013 and it changed me in a way that I scared even myself – I love PEOPLE in general and watching history take place and unfold in front of me on a big screen with total silence in the room ( minus a few parts of a movie that may have been edited for viewing ) still made me become aware of emotions that I had NO IDEA I had the ability to even feel towards another person. However – after the movie was over – I went to go and “speak to myself” and purge what I was feeling –

Although I ONLY spoke for about 10 minutes – I still felt as if I indeed had soo much MORE to say – but I was TERRIFIED how it would actually leave from my lips – Black History has a great deal of blemishes in it….. but it cannot be ERASED but it can be used as a tool of how WE ALL CAN do better and promote and push for LOVE AND EQUALITY – Did I get upset? Yes, Did I cry? YES, Did I become bitter? No, Did I pause and re-evaluate my friendships of anyone who is white in my life? Yes.

Did it change my views of them? NO!!  Ugghhh!! Racism is ugly …

Now that I am BETTER and I have CALMED myself down – I feel great – I feel good – I feel free – I feel blessed – I feel strong – I feel different – I feel worthy – I feel accomplished – I feel valued – I feel blessed – I feel invincible – I feel beautiful – I am just honored that I can EVEN FEEL ANYTHING –


The Mindset of Some Cultures


Although this is a cartoon BUT there is truth all through it. I mean really, which headstone is Trayvon Martin? Martin Luther King Jr.? Emmett Till? Darrell Turner Jr? and thousands of other black INNOCENT males? Huh?

Point is that I do not EVER want any of these tombstones to be be connected to or be a representative for anyone who did no wrong to be there.

Let alone yet ANOTHER “racial profile” black male..  Let alone either one if MY OWN sons!


Same old ….Same old In – JUSTICE


Ugghh…. of course by NOW everywhere in America is either screaming, crying, protesting, yelling, screaming or talking about the unlawful and racial profiling killing Trayvon Martin case right….. How about I was NOT EVEN SHOCKED that the verdict went the way that it did….. Honey, look at the CASEY ANTHONY CASE……….enough said huh??

Well, I will just not only pray but I will ALSO find other ways to be of an help to make a difference….. Sign petitions… show up for rallies…show up & PARTICIPATE in town hall conversations etc.. ( THIS COULD HAVE EASILY BEEN MY KID )

It is MORE than just praying – you also have to do something as well…..before the black males in this country becomes an endangered species! ! #truth


Just Wondering…..

I love POLITICS but………….. politics via Florida’s Legislation  has indeed KILLED this boy! Almost every law that we are still going by was made many – many years ago…. Some of these laws NEED to be re – addressed – AMENDDED as soon as possible before any more people ( black men especially ) are killed. GEESH

America is so backwards in a great deal of things that we do, believe in and act out and call it LEGAL! This country “literally” lets you get away with Murder but if you check the statistical data on other countries like Mexico, China and Czech Republic…those people seem to think TWICE before committing hard-core crimes.

More than 900,000 people have signed a petition on Change.org demanding the arrest of shooter George Zimmerman. See the extent of protests across the country and tell us if you plan to participate. http://on.cnn.com/GLwXXQ



civil rights in vain?

Monkey See, Monkey Do…. Simon Says … etc. I wonder what has transpired to the willingness for people to desire to strive for greatness? The slump of the African American Communty (ies) is just soo heart wrenching at times, that it brings about a pain for my people that I sometimes NO LONGER want to feel.

This is all I want to know……

Do you think that Martin Luther King Jr. has asked the Lord if he could leave Heaven
being escorted by one of the angles.. at least just for a minute… I mean seriously!

Gabriel or Michael so that he could ask the African American Communities if he DIED FOR NOTHING..

Good question dont ya think? He just wasnt for black rights… but for civil rights.. HUMAN
rights.. but of course being an African American himself..he wanted the best for his people..

Nonetheless…..because as a people.. yes A PEOPLE.. we have not totally taken the open doors that he ignited for HIS people as well as others.. Hmm.. maybe some of our communities ( these young kids as well..
no respect.. in any form or fashion ) need to have the luxury of getting sprayed by forceful water gushing hoses and being chased and bitten by dogs to fully understand what he was trying to accomplish…. It is a suggestion that is all. Understand my frustration yet? It is not rocket science to obtain information about the Civil Rights Movement and then figure out what is done  >>next.

Problem is that the ACTION – WORD called >>> Unity has almost been depleted from the vocabulary of African Americans to the point that the actions that are put on display shows you that every single day. Morning, Noon and Night, we as a people NEVER let the media down by showing what “we are indeed capable of”……

 What about what Malcom X did for the African American Comminty (ies) as well? The religion that he chose to follow was Islam and I feel because of that, the black community (ies) seem to hold that against him when it comes to the part that he “played and participated in” via the black community.

The same kids that are getting shot and killed, bullied, verbally abused etc. kids do not think about the long term affects that their actions have. They take a life and think that it is cool and will make them popular. They rob and steal and brag about it like they just scored a “A” on their Alegebra Test in school. They bully kids like they are the Osama Bin Laden, but where is Osama now???  >>>> buried 6 feet under, burned up to never be seen but more so “dealt with again”…..

 Is it me? Or does it seem as more women appreciate the marches and the strikes etc? I mean where IN THE WORLD are all of our male role models for these black young boys and teenagers? They are dying so fast it is like an epidemic and feels as if there is a disease that has been let loose in the atmoshpere and it has now reached its “airborn state” that it is indeed infectious…. I am just venting of course but also through my venting, the truth is surely being spewed from my lips.

The fathers that leave, run and abandon their children are also growing in record numbers and if there were stiffer penalties for this, men would either be more careful of who they have sex with and have children with. Or it will surely cause them to think twice about not having protected sex. Make it into legislation about a few other things and that will erradicate several issues.

What about Medger Edgars? Did he die in vain for the generations of the 1990’s to present? Huh?

I wonder very often if the anointed, tenacious and tactful Civil Rights Leaders from our past was able to see how the world would be in the next 20 to 40 years, ” WOULD THEY STILL” have gone through everything that they for OUR PEOPLE? I feel that they would have still spoken up but not risked their lives for people who would only appreciate it for “the now”…….

I am beyond embarrassed, hurtful is a more concrete feeling that I constantly feel seeing the people of my color, my skin, my ethnic group, my sisters, my brothers, my family, my children CHOOSE to be a statistic without any current regets…

That right there for me is enough to make a blind man not even want to see! My heart is just grieved and prayer, faith as well as action will make the change but it indeed truly takes a village to not only raise a child but it takes a few villages now to raise 1 kid that has gone astray in this day in age. Nonetheless, it is now 2011, and for every “village it takes”… there are at least 10 kids from that very same village that are acting in disarray so a great deal of help is neede. Help Lord, Please…

It is not fair to allow people to feel that A DEATH was in vein… God knows all of the answers of course but I am venting from the aspect of being an African American Woman, a mother to a black son, raised by a black father from the south who experienced racisim his whole life and has been chased and threathend by several white men……he made his voice heard when it was time….. i was nurtured by a beautiful black women who also was raised in the south via the era of racism and was there to witness the Atlanta as well as the Alabama Church burnings….

My father pushed, and pushed until I understood the importance of education by making me read books on presients, political events, federal budgets, understand the stock market, and a whole slew of other things that has made me into the woman that I am today. He self taught himself all of that and he only had a middle school education due to the South being so bad when he was growing up as a boy he had to leave because he couldnt take it anymore and that is what brought him up North.

So as his daughter and the things that he had to go through along with a great deal of other African American families it hurts me to my very soul to see THE STATE OF black males today. Sadly to say, a great deal of the African American little girls, tweens, teens and a few women make me EQUALLY sad…. People when does it stop? If you need counseling, lets get it, if you need this…. if you need that…. let us as a people get it please!

I am soo over hearing, watching, experiencing the death and downfall of that black males in American Society… People are hurting and may dont know how to get out of their mass hysteria and I do “”” GET THAT “”” …………….. however, can you at least meet us half way?

 Even if you dont like what you see when you look outside your window… brown grass or green grass… a picket fence or barbed wire… find that place in God because only He can take you higher….

Regardless if you grew up in the projects, on the porch  or in the palace……E–V-E-R-Y-O-N-E  has a dream!

Dear ( ME )

Cow Girl Part 2

Okay, now when I first heard this song, UNFORTUNATELY like alot of other people…..

I thought that he was a white male, ONLY due to the industry of country music and I was sooo wrong and it was soooo great being wrong! Even if Country Music isnt your thing, the words are just pure awesomeness!! I mean his youtube country single called “Alright” currently has over 3,872,326 views and growing! I am sure anyone who knows me is maybe thinking that I am went off of the deep end via my music choices and blogging topics but it was due to me only sharing a LIMITED portion of myself to certain people…. Being born and raised in a strict / ministerial / educated household led me to believe that there was only a “certain way” to live, think, walk, talk, live and BE.  I am Jesus Christ ALL DAY LONG, but even Jesus was DIVERSED! lol ( #teamvalarie)

 So if you are not too stiff necked, starchy and want to diversify yourself, go check out #team DARIUS RUCKER!!  http://youtu.be/etr7UtnUflM