Cried All Afternoon


Okay – I am OVER my venting rampage that I went through earlier today – BUT my morning and afternoon was just a big ball of emotion…… Being a Drug and Alcohol Case Manager allows me to meet and connect with a diverse group of people… I teach them things BUT I also learn from them too!
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Over the last 3 years I have stayed in consistent contact with only two clients- Jamie and Deanna. In social services, you are taught / trained not to have any connections but it is hard NOT TO CARE when you genuinely care.
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Nonetheless, these two women are no longer a part of the program that I work in so at “this point” it is alright.. Furthermore, these two women specifically were God Chosen and not Valarie Chosen and how our relationship has been is great.
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Nonetheless, my Jamie ( Jamester ) is what I affectionately call her always like for me to meet her friends because she considers me like her spiritual counselor, friend and big sister. Its an honor and we all get together and talk about LIFE and of course the things of CHRIST……. I believe that REAL MINISTRY is outside of the 4 – 8 walls of the church!
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Well this is where this PARTICULAR story gets good then great then bad……. Okay I met a young girl named Nicole but her nick name is SUNSHINE……. We talked about God and his purpose and this girl was ON FIRE FOR GOD ..Do you hear me!!! I mean we started preaching to each other and praying then prophesying and everything..

I told her AT THAT VERY MOMENT that God has connected us and although she is Jesus Follower, she is supposed to come to church with me and IMMEDIATELY she said I would LOVE TO and we planned to meet on Sunday morning at 830 am. I met her on a Friday and we were going to church that Sunday – We had such an amazing Spiritual Connection…it was sooo REFRESHING…. and God was in every aspect of our converstaions…..

Jamie called me and text me saying to call her that it was an emergency… I was praying that she was not in the process of relapsing back on drugs…. So I prayed as I was getting dressed to leave the house to start my full day of running around….. I said to myself.. CALL HER LATER ….she calls you all the time and you guys talk all the time…. God said dont answer the phone but call her back WHEN I GET IN THE CAR……. I  am saying…ok Lord….

I finally call Jamester back and she advises me that SUNSHINE DIED LAST NIGHT IN A CAR ACCIDENT!!

This is her below in the photo…..Nicole Albright 22 Years Old a.k.a. Sunshine

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We first met and took this photo  11 – 29 – 2013

I took her to church 12 – 1 – 2013

She died in car accident 12-8-2013

Links to her story.. Please keep her family lifted in prayer …God Bless

http://www.wpxi.com/news/news/local/1-killed-child-hurt-rollover-accident-bigelow-blvd/ncFt8/

http://www.post-gazette.com/local/breaking/2013/12/09/Victim-identified-in-Bigelow-Boulevard-crash/stories/201312090142

http://pittsburgh.cbslocal.com/2013/12/09/woman-killed-child-injured-in-hill-district-crash/

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Mother’s Teachings


My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE…
“If you’re going kill each other, do it outside – I just finished cleaning!”

My mother taught me RELIGION…
“You better pray that will come out of the carpet.”

My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL…
“If you don’t straighten up, I’m going to knock you into the middle of next week!”

My mother taught me LOGIC…
“Because I said so, that’s why.”

My mother taught me LOGIC… #2
“If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you’re not going to the store with me.”

My mother taught me FORESIGHT…
“Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you’re in an accident.”

My mother taught me IRONY…
“Keep crying and I’ll give you something to cry about.”

My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS…
“Shut your mouth and eat your supper!”

My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM…
“Will you LOOK at the dirt on the back of your neck!”

My mother taught me about STAMINA…
“You’ll sit there ’till all that spinach is finished.”

My mother taught me about WEATHER…
“It looks as if a tornado swept through your room.”

My mother taught me how to solve PHYSICS PROBLEMS…
“If I yelled because I saw a meteor coming toward you, would you listen THEN?”

My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY…
“If I’ve told you once, I’ve told you a million times: Don’t exaggerate!”

My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION…
“Stop acting like your father!”

My mother taught me about ENVY…
“There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don’t have wonderful parents like you do!”

Funny right? You gotta love the teachings of your parents…. I wish my dad was still here to teach me more things and I PRAY that my mother lives a great deal longer to remain teaching me things! HONOR your parents….. >>>>please

Timing-


Geesh!, It has been forever since I have been on –  but I have been so busy that I could hardly almost focus some days! Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much has been going on and I am STILL trying to figure out what to do “with it all”…….There is never enough time in the day or I am just trying to do just way too- too too much!

Whether I am Relocating or just moving to a different neighborhood, it seems to always be like a mini major mile stone!  The only thing that keeps me coming in and out of Pennsylvania is my mother – nothing more and nothing less…. There are other siblings but no one “looks after her” like I do and she knows that as well. So eventually moving to either one of those two coutnries that I used to blog about for months will have to be placed on hold.

 

Nonetheless, always “jumping in and out of the car” and going from state to state is something that seems to be very tiresome but it something that I will continue to do “for my mom”…. In no way, shape or form am I trying to kill her off or wish her dead but I will certainly stay close to Pennsylvania driving distance as long as she is alive!

I have visited New Jersey and loved a great deal of the areas like Alpine! Whew Jesus, is it so beautiful there!!! I have been going back and forth via the Maryland, Virginia and D.C. area for the last few years and it takes a TOLL on the body! It is so amazing that my son manages to have NEVER missed a day of school and I am grateful for that! He is so amazing… he does not care how often we just get up and go as long as he is with me he seems to stay happy! LOL

Oh also, as long as one of his friends gets to tag along as well, he stays busy with activities and he gets to see his grandmother every week he has no complaints! ( thank God )

The Art of Forgiving –


If you want to feel free, released from the past  then you must forgive. Forgive everyone, especially yourself. I know how difficult it is to overcome our natural and very human feelings of anger, guilt, resentment and fear. The basis of them can seem and may well be completely justified, you may be completely right to have these emotions and it is OK to experience them.

I have blogged about my twin teenagers SEVERAL times not so much documenting on the HORRID things they have done towards me over the years but I have given “interesting and colorful” examples of their behavior! I know from TRUE EXPERIENCE about “feeling justified” why you should not only BE UPSET but more so STAY UPSET.

However, these emotions damage your ability to move on, you must accept your emotions but then be prepared to let them go. To release yourself, you must forgive. Until you do you will remain the victim with your life locked into all those negative emotions.

Remember, life is in the now, the past is already finished and dead and cannot be changed. Nothing you can do now, can ever change the past, yet it is amazing how many people squander their emotional and life energy, consumed with anger or guilt about the past.

In this moment now, you have your power, the power to make your choices, take your action, to make a difference. You have no power in the past and you have no assurance of power in the future.

LONG STORY SHORT – I was able to forgive and re – connect with my 19 year old daughter and we are moving forward, staying positive, speaking faith, trusting God and loving life again but this time around……” TOGETHER ”

God is indeed AMAZING!