To My Oldest Kids,
I was sitting here thinking and re- evaluations a whole of things that transpired between the 3 of us over the years., Then I also had a talk with one of your previous coaches, talked to a few other relatives, talked to God and even had a tiny conversation with myself about you and your sister over your very LONG teenage years. I was a little excited because you will both be turning 19 years of age in July and I still ask myself where did the time go! Although you guys are fraternal twins – sometimes I wonder if you are really indeed twins at all because you both just have WAY too, too, too, too, too, too many differences! ( good and bad )
Nonetheless, as I move on in my life I wanted you to know that I will always – always love you and I am NO LONGER upset with either one of you! Plus, if I desire to get into Heaven, I better not be mad anymore! Plus, it is not worth it at all….
Well, with you both, Please know that I am just no longer willing to accept your disrespect and your unwillingness to put in the time and effort that it takes for us to build and maintain a loving and healthy relationship….
I am sure that you are shocked but guess what – I was too when I was able to FINALLY come to this point in my life!
Like I said at the beginning of this letter, you both will be turning 19 years of age next month and I have been struggling HARD with the both of you since you were 12 1/2 and I do believe that it is time for ME to see about ME. You guys have chosen for the last 7 years of what you wanted to do…when you wanted to do it…if you wanted to do it…who you wanted to do it for and with…. and sad to say, None of it INCLUDED ME!
I love you guys to pieces and when “it is time”, we will connect again but it will be on my time and terms…. oh an by the way, I am glad that you both are my kids … EVEN THOUGH YOU DON’T ACT, SPEAK, OR DRESS LIKE IT!
If you need need better interpretation of this quick – blunt – open and closed letter, please consult God!
P.S. If you cannot tell by now – I have allowed every year that has passed to MAKE ME better and not bitter!