Helping Self...

Just Thinking –

I have been exposed to diversity all of my life but over the last 10 years I have reshifted my focus towards my OWN community. Was it right? No? Did I feel that I had just cause? Yes – the way that the COMMUNITY acts towards one another from within the COMMUNITY left me no choice but to mentally – physically – emotionally – financially – and sometimes even spiritually from the community.

However, after seeing a movie on August 20, 2013 and it changed me in a way that I scared even myself – I love PEOPLE in general and watching history take place and unfold in front of me on a big screen with total silence in the room ( minus a few parts of a movie that may have been edited for viewing ) still made me become aware of emotions that I had NO IDEA I had the ability to even feel towards another person. However – after the movie was over – I went to go and “speak to myself” and purge what I was feeling –

Although I ONLY spoke for about 10 minutes – I still felt as if I indeed had soo much MORE to say – but I was TERRIFIED how it would actually leave from my lips – Black History has a great deal of blemishes in it….. but it cannot be ERASED but it can be used as a tool of how WE ALL CAN do better and promote and push for LOVE AND EQUALITY – Did I get upset? Yes, Did I cry? YES, Did I become bitter? No, Did I pause and re-evaluate my friendships of anyone who is white in my life? Yes.

Did it change my views of them? NO!!  Ugghhh!! Racism is ugly …

Now that I am BETTER and I have CALMED myself down – I feel great – I feel good – I feel free – I feel blessed – I feel strong – I feel different – I feel worthy – I feel accomplished – I feel valued – I feel blessed – I feel invincible – I feel beautiful – I am just honored that I can EVEN FEEL ANYTHING –


celebrating differences

First of all I just noticed that me and the woman in the photo are wearing the exact same color scheme and that was not planned! LOL Today people should not assume that the circle (s) of people or clicks that they have chosen to surround themselves with is not the END ALL / BE ALL approach to real relationships.  Over the last 5 years I have found a sense of humor, realized that I dont have to be in church 7 days a week, understood that balance within family, work and ministry is a MUST and that being silent at times is so powerful.

Sometimes I think back to how I used to be and laugh because I have come a mighty long way.. Now granted everyone has a past but some are just worse than others. We have all fallen short and it is up to God to decide on the depth that each person has fallen, not us. Judge slowly because you never know when it may be you who are in need of help or better yet, it could be a family or friend.  Being different is alright and because of that should not change your opportunities in life.

What we have to do… is to find a way to celebrate our diversity and debate our differences without fracturing our communities. We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.

The beauty of Difference is of the essence of humanity. Difference is an accident of birth and it should therefore never be the source of hatred or conflict. The answer to difference is to respect it. Therein lies a most fundamental principle of peace: respect for diversity.
Human diversity makes tolerance more than a virtue; it makes it a requirement for survival.

I now have and fellowship with loved ones with very different backgrounds and it does not matter if they have the same clothing as I do, the same education, social class / status, denomination etc….etc..etc..etc… God has had me on this AGAPE LOVE that He speaks about and displayed in the Holy Scriptures…….

Showing love  should also displays the need to be there for them. help whenever possible…….. tell them how much you love and care for them. always remember: be careful about how you end your meetings, don’t ever end a conversation angrily, you never know if those could be the last words you say to them.

This is the same young lady that reminds me of my own baby sister and everytime that I see her shows me that LIFE isnt that bad! This girl fights to stay clean and sober and I even get inspired…… to even want to help her and other women like her. A great deal of people in ministry I am sure may have a past that they may not have a desire to speak about……but the women that I have seemed to find myself around lately, seem to LOVE to share their story / testimony!