#nomore tears 4 me________________________
Don’t be naive! There are difficult times ahead. As the end approaches, people are going to be self-absorbed, money-hungry, self-promoting, stuck-up, profane, contemptuous of parents, crude, coarse, dog-eat-dog, unbending, slanderers, impulsively wild, savage, cynical, treacherous, ruthless, bloated windbags, addicted to lust, and allergic to God. They’ll make a show of religion, but behind the scenes they’re animals. Stay clear of these people!” (2 Timothy 3:1-5)
Welp, it is PLAIN AS DAY via what the scripture says!! However, I was like most parents…. you have kids and raise them with Christian morals…beliefs and values etc… and you hope and pray for the best….. Then if you hear crazy stories about children not acting and living right…you immediately do not think that it is or will it ever be your child!
The days of spending sleepness nights and dreadful mornings is indeed OVER! I even gave myself a mini celebration get together… because as of AUGUST 2011 I set my ownself FREE from the same old same old with my teenage kids.
It is sad when two parents cannot BOTH come together and raise their child (ren)….. Having my teenagers under a different roof has indeed had more challenges that I ever thought that I would face… However, there are also some things that I cannot put on the other parent… the children have to take part in some of the accountability process as well. I NEVER thought in a million years that a human being can release sooo much water from their tear ducks from >>CRYING!
They look at me as too strict, not cool, too talkative, praying too much and going to church too much. However EVERYTIME business is needed to be taken care of….. they dont come to me.. but they RUN TO ME and say.. mom your professional, you can get a prayer through, I want you to talk to this person and that person, etc..etc..etc… and then of course they knew that I always came through.
So when they have financial needs, business needs and networking needs / wants >>>>> I WAS THE BEST PARENT IN THE WORLD
However, they knew / know that I live a certain way… maintaining strong morals, ethics, values and stances and that is something that they indeed did NOT want to re – sign back up for which led them to live with their father.
It has been a trying LONG, EXHAUSTING 6 years dealing with kids under another household but the sweat, tears and DAILY ANGUISH stopped today. Knowing that over these 6 years that they have constantly called me for EVERYTHING…..regardless if their father knew or not……From changing houses to changing schools…. God knew how things would work out in the end… My kids are 18 years of age but have actions of people in their late and early 30’s and it is due to the enemy gaining access and it has gone from bad to worse in a matter of 10 seconds flat it seems.
So gald that I can finally breath without thinking that everytime that I watch the news that their names will be mentioned….. I can finally lift my head because I am no longer embarrassed by the things that THEY do…..I can now get more sleep because I am no longer wondering where they are and how long they are staying out…. When God gives you peace….nothing can beat that….. I care about my 18 year teenagers but I had to finally >>>>>FINALLY let them go in the NATURAL so that God could do what was needed for their sake in the SPIRITUAL.
Even as their mother, I was in the way…. Mothers ask why…Mothers are there when they dont want to be…Mothers are the Engine – Engine 9 Train comes in and fixes everything…Mothers mend the things that are broken…. and ask for favor for the things that may have been destroyed! Nonetheless, even as a Mother…A Mom…A Mommy etc.. you have to know when it is time to turn it all over to Jesus.
God is not stressing over the way that my kids are CHOOSING to live their lives so………… “why am I”…….. After 6 years of anguish…misunderstanding…miscommunication…..disrespect…..being lied on…being used and abused……the fussing……the fighting…..the embarrassment…..the HELL……. ummm I really feel that it is MORE than appropriate that >>>>>>>>> I FINALLY CHOOSE ME!