Church –

Oh did I have a splendid time on today in regards to fellowship at my place of worship! It is funny to me because I am so used to being in church EACH SERVICE for at least 3 hours. My son and I got home a little after 11 am this morning and it threw me off until at least 4 pm – SERIOUSLY!

I am so grateful for at least “this season” I am somewhere I am enjoying – learning new things about myself and discovering the Love of Christ in such a new and beautiful way –

The worship experience is so FREE that it makes me feel as if I am indeed floating on the promises of God Himself! It is different but good – new but old – loud but angelic – busy but therapuetic – short but long and I am happy as ever.

A HUGE PERK for me is that my 11 1/2 year old son really likes it as well – WHEW- So grateful

Dear ( ME )

Movies and MY……emotions……

Geeeesh!!! It amazes me how I can think that im alright in certain areas until I go see movies at the theatre!

I reallllllllly ENJOY going to see a movie once a week ALONE……

The pure enchantment brings me much joy and it allows me to think, meditate, laugh, giggle, smirk, smile, frown and cry….

I first realized that being at the movie theatre alone was 1 of the few places that allows things that are dead….hidden…suffocated….sleep…. etc to come alive or at least awaken!

I first had this eye balling……tissue box craving experience when I went to see the movie called Eat Pray Love….

Man oh man!!!! Talk about in your face and feeling like actress Julia Roberts saying, Val…are SOME of these feelings familiar!!

Also, a movie with actor Robert Deniro and the movie was called Everythings Alright…..Well I think that was the name…whew….i sat there feeling simply depressed as I shooked my head in agreement and sadness because of the similarities within my own family and of course myself….

Then the last two movies that I saw were New Years Eve …no one would believe the charachter I MOST connected to! It was like a mirror but just recently at the movie theatre….i began to ask myself am I really miserable???? Geeeeesh, im soo serious folks because I did not feel to nice on the inside! Then God had me ask Him…..and he advised me that im NOT miserable…

Its just I have been through sooo sooooo much within the past 10 years that SOME of my emotions are just slowly catching up to me and certain types of movies seem to bring things to the surface that I havent dealt with or didnt FINISH dealing with!! Geeeesh, God is amazing right and HIS revelation is mind blowing!!!

The other movie is called, We Bought A Zoo with cutie Matt Damon and Scarlett Johansen……listen!

The previews on tv didnt do that movie justice at all!! That movie had me crying and re evaluating things too!! Lol….. I tell ya, I am glad to be oprn so God can show me whats good BUT also whats sour in MY life!!!

Okay im done……..

P.S. Blogging and Writing is great therapy….people who dont do it should surely try it!

I feel like a brand new person like I went to church, and went up to the Altar and obtained Jesus Christ into my lifr / heart for the very FIRST time!….. I feel amazing!

Dear ( ME )

office visits, schoool and life

EVERYTIME I am at the doctor’s office…my brain starts wandering and the analogies that I get and put together may seem weird to some but is indeed right up my alley!..  You ever notice that while you are waiting…… on the “NATURAL” doctor and the SPIRITUAL doctor ( God )…..that  you seem to have the opportunity to dig deep and calm yourself… and let your mind soar into places that “if you wasnt forced to wait ” that maybe you may not have? I know that I sound as if I am babbling….. but this is what I got “while waiting”

Life is my schoool

Trials are my exams

Tribulations are my tests

The Holy Bible is the book that I use to study

Prayer is my study notes

The Angels are my classmates and friends

God is my Principal

Jesus Christ is my Guidance Counselor

The Holy Ghost is my best friend

Praise and Worship are my school activities

Dying is me having proof that I have completed my curriculum to apply for graduation

My name written in the Lamb’s Book of Life shows that I didnt cheat my way through

Getting into Heaven is me actually graduating

The crowns that will be on my crown represents the people that I led to Christ and the obedience I have shown via Christ

Dear ( ME )

new – ness

A Reconstructed Woman of God and the Season Has Begun To Change For ME…

It’s A New Season… Some will mixed.. Some will be neutral…. Regardless of what season it is, just be Prepared!

A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.”   Ecclesiastes 3:3,4.

Then Jesus told this parable: A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, “For three years now I’ve been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any.

Cut it down. Why should it use up the soil?” “Sir,” the man replied, “leave it alone for one more year, and I’ll dig around it and fertilize it.
If it bears fruit next year, fine. If not, then cut it down”………………

There’s been a great deal more of Sunshine for me & it feels good! You cannot enter a new season unless you have discovered that the season that you have made yourself comfortable in has passed…..Seasons change in the midst of… Like now.. in this brand new year of 2008, there has been 70 degree weather. So that is a mixed season..

You take off.. but you leave what you may need, not at home but in the car..  So while you are out experiencing this “unexpected” seasonal change, you have the ability to change in case the season does.

 Therefore, that is what it is and has been all about for me, in me and through me in these last 6 months.. Seasonal change to prepare me for the harvest that has been promised and is to come… I thank God for the new seasons…because my soul has caught on fire!

Dear ( ME )

my bucket list….

I have had a NATURAL BUCKET LIST FOR YEARS and when the movie actually came out called Bucket List it kicked some things into gear for me! Some of the things I have done since then has really helped me discover the “real me”….. I have digged up a few things that I would like to make into my Bucket List starting TODAY!! I will posting 40 things that I would like to do before I leave this earth!! Welp,  Here we go!!!


1. Go to Italy and stay for a year

2. Learn Japanese

3. Learn to Surf

4. Go Skydiving

5. Be mentored by President Bill Clinton OR obtain 1 very intense session with him

6. Learn how to swim so that I can go swimming with the Dolphins

7. Go on an African Safari

8. Become a Licensed Archeologist so that I can study Egyptian History

9. Start a Charter School in my father’s name

10. Have a one on one with Bernice King ( Martin Luther King Jr.’s daughter )

11. Become and maintain a physically fit size 8 dress size

12. Become and stay a happy, productive, wise and cherished Christian wife

13. Learn and teach Sign Language

14. Deliver a great empowering and ” error – free ” speech to America

15. Become a Health Inspector

16. Apply, Attend and Graduate Law School ( and pass the Bar Exam )

17. Get singng lessons that would gear me toward being able to sing a country song

18. Learn and master the piano

19. Learn and master the guitar

20. Learn how to box

21. Start  a Christian Camp for kids

22. Meet Ken Wanatbe and  Chow Yun Fat ( Japanese Actors )

23. Go to  a Baltimore Ravens Football game and have great seats

24. Watch a Super Bowl game with Ray Lewis ( Line Backer for Ravens )

25. Become a Sports Agent

26. Cover a NFL game as a Sports Analyst

27. Become a News Reporter

28. Live in 2 other states / 1 out West and 1 down South

29. Walk on the beach at night and run in the rain with my husband

30. Have lunch with Dick Gregory

31. Run a marathon

32. Write a weekly coulmn for The New York Post

33. Be featured in Ebony and Essence Magazine

34. Be a Presidential Staff Employee

35. Have a significant role in a movie

36. Hug Sean Connery and Robert DeNiro

37. Shake hands and take a photo with Nelson Mandela

38. Visit all 7 Wonders of the World

 39. Start a jewelry and t – shirt line

40. Go to Jerusalem for a week and spend 2  days with a Rabbi


politics and ME

Let’s talk more politics!! Dont you smell it in the air! Dont you feel the energy! If not, then why dont you? Are you that uninvolved? Are you that unaware? If so, change today and become involved or at least become aware of your political government choices on the city, state and federal levels! Usually people will say that they are BLUE, RED or GREY, which grey represents the in the middle of the road individuals which is fine, but just BE SOMETHING!


Now for so called CHRISTIANS, the voting pool should look like the RED color coded states above! Not so much via the state that it represents but just the overall percentage of RED that covers the United States continent as a whole.  I say this based on the facts and foundation of what the RED >>> The Republican Party represents and was birthed on via morals, values, ethics, and of course the Christian Faith.

Most African Americans are BLUE >>> Democrat because that is how they were raised, however, when does one research ” for themselves” to see if what they have been beleiving for sooo many years is indeed true? This is the time for you to turn on the light bulb in your head right now…

Here are a “FEW” of the stances that the repubs and dems differ: and there are a great deal of them but here are the MAIN stances!

Within a government there are always individuals who oppose each other and who are fighting for control or for a position of power. Usually these divides exist because of differences in political views. Hold on, I am having a flash back on my personal journey!!

I remember when I FINALLY ran for public office and had the time of my life….

However, with my father passing in the middle of my campaign it jolted me and I felt as if I couldnt go on at all. Thank goodness for friends, family and volunteers who too, knew my father because they told me that my father would “at least” want and EXPECT me to finish the campaign and the race! It was my father who gave me the political bug! When others were outside playing, he had me learning the stock market, reading bi-laws and studying President Lyndon B. Johnson, President Franklin Delano Roosevelt, Richard Nixon, Presidnet Jimmy Carter, Ronald Reagan, and all of the Kennedy eras!

When I began school I loved politics and when I graduated college; I told my father that I one day I would run for public office.

He also reminded me that, speaking well is also a  powerful tool that I must master. He constantly reminded me that when speaking about ANYTHING, I must be able to implement truth and conviction, if I ever wanted people to believe in what I was saying.  He went on to say that without knowledge, I will  just become just another useless pretty face and my efforts will all be in vain. Those words stuck with me via educational goals, ministry goals and every other facet of my life. 

Therefore, it was working for the Brabender Cox Political Affairs Firm; where I really became sure that I was actually bitten by the political bug. Being an African American Woman; some couldn’t understand why I would leave the Democratic Party to join the Republican Party.

 This radical move just proved how clever my father trained me to really be. I then seized this opportunity to find out, study and learn how both sides worked. I indeed learned several strategies and inside information that proved quite useful. As a born and raised Democrat, It was never a question of where my loyalties where; this just goes to show, that radical times require bold, radical actions and strategies, to get things done.

 I am so glad that I pulled myself out of the big hole that I happily dug myself and started back on the campaign trail. I was running against 7 other candidates and when the election was all over, I didnt win with the electoral vote but I sure did win with a personal and spiritual vote! I came IN 3RD PLACE and this was my first time running! I said  >> WOW << just imagine if my precious father did not get sick and pass, I know that I would have surely won!!!! I am excited even talking about it now, becaues I am thinking of what could have been!

Nonetheless, over the last few years with some of the major, uphill and downhill battles that I have endured, things surely went >>> ” God’s – Way” <<<< So with that said I am happy!

Now back to the political antics of the government! Within the United States government there are two popular political parties that dominate the political system. They are the Republican Party and the Democratic Party, and each of these parties has a different political agenda composed of different beliefs, and a different political view on each of the varying issues. A person’s political view can not be determined by the party that they align themselves with, however there are trends that exist, and generally a person who identifies with a political party shares the opinions that the majority of the party holds on the issues. The political view of republicans tends to be more conservative, while the political view of democrats is usually more liberal.

The political stance that republicans usually take on abortion is pro-life. They believe that a child is alive from the moment of conception and therefore should be protected by the same rights that all citizens of the United States are protected by. Because of this republicans do not support a woman’s right to choose to terminate a fetus. On the other hand, democrats believe that choice is an essential freedom and they support and defend a woman’s right to choose abortion should she find it necessary.

 On health care, democrats take the political stance that all American citizens should have access to an affordable and decent health care system. This may include implementing a universal health care system. Republicans disagree, arguing that if health care is run by the government then all individuals will receive inadequate care.

People who can afford to pay for health care will pay for it and the people who can not afford it will deal with poor care, if they receive any at all. Health care should remain privatized. The political stance of democrats on the environment is that the environment is in a current state of crisis and that climate change should be made a national priority. It is essential that the United States invest in alternative forms of energy so that they can become independent of other nations.

Republicans usually maintain that the climate has gone through drastic changes throughout history, and that the human species has not affected it. They also argue that there has been no scientific proof offered that shows that anything that we do will help to improve the condition of the environment. By creating extreme environmental policies we are simply cutting jobs and hurting the economy. The political stance of the republicans on the “Don’t ask, Don’t Tell” policy, which prohibits openly gay and lesbian individuals from enlisting in the army, is that homosexuals have no place in the military.

Democrats, on the other hand, oppose this policy and believe that it should be abolished. On gun control republicans take the political stance that all American citizens have the right to defend themselves. The second amendment of the United States Constitution states that all American citizens have the right to keep and bear arms. Therefore, all American citizens have the right to own a gun. Democrats stress the point that guns kill people and that they are often the cause of many accidental deaths, including the deaths of children. Democrats and republicans have drastically different opinions when it comes to important issues, and they will probably continue to disagree throughout the rest of political history.

Okay that is ALL >>>> for now!