Cried All Afternoon


Okay – I am OVER my venting rampage that I went through earlier today – BUT my morning and afternoon was just a big ball of emotion…… Being a Drug and Alcohol Case Manager allows me to meet and connect with a diverse group of people… I teach them things BUT I also learn from them too!
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Over the last 3 years I have stayed in consistent contact with only two clients- Jamie and Deanna. In social services, you are taught / trained not to have any connections but it is hard NOT TO CARE when you genuinely care.
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Nonetheless, these two women are no longer a part of the program that I work in so at “this point” it is alright.. Furthermore, these two women specifically were God Chosen and not Valarie Chosen and how our relationship has been is great.
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Nonetheless, my Jamie ( Jamester ) is what I affectionately call her always like for me to meet her friends because she considers me like her spiritual counselor, friend and big sister. Its an honor and we all get together and talk about LIFE and of course the things of CHRIST……. I believe that REAL MINISTRY is outside of the 4 – 8 walls of the church!
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Well this is where this PARTICULAR story gets good then great then bad……. Okay I met a young girl named Nicole but her nick name is SUNSHINE……. We talked about God and his purpose and this girl was ON FIRE FOR GOD ..Do you hear me!!! I mean we started preaching to each other and praying then prophesying and everything..

I told her AT THAT VERY MOMENT that God has connected us and although she is Jesus Follower, she is supposed to come to church with me and IMMEDIATELY she said I would LOVE TO and we planned to meet on Sunday morning at 830 am. I met her on a Friday and we were going to church that Sunday – We had such an amazing Spiritual Connection…it was sooo REFRESHING…. and God was in every aspect of our converstaions…..

Jamie called me and text me saying to call her that it was an emergency… I was praying that she was not in the process of relapsing back on drugs…. So I prayed as I was getting dressed to leave the house to start my full day of running around….. I said to myself.. CALL HER LATER ….she calls you all the time and you guys talk all the time…. God said dont answer the phone but call her back WHEN I GET IN THE CAR……. I  am saying…ok Lord….

I finally call Jamester back and she advises me that SUNSHINE DIED LAST NIGHT IN A CAR ACCIDENT!!

This is her below in the photo…..Nicole Albright 22 Years Old a.k.a. Sunshine

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We first met and took this photo  11 – 29 – 2013

I took her to church 12 – 1 – 2013

She died in car accident 12-8-2013

Links to her story.. Please keep her family lifted in prayer …God Bless

http://www.wpxi.com/news/news/local/1-killed-child-hurt-rollover-accident-bigelow-blvd/ncFt8/

http://www.post-gazette.com/local/breaking/2013/12/09/Victim-identified-in-Bigelow-Boulevard-crash/stories/201312090142

http://pittsburgh.cbslocal.com/2013/12/09/woman-killed-child-injured-in-hill-district-crash/

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Night Cap……


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God does NOT do the things that we expect Him to do just because we FEEL THAT they need to be done… He is GOD!

HE also did not……write me a memo stating that He would make my life easier…..

HE also did not…..give me a hint when my 19 1/2 year old twin children would finally decide to follow Him …..

HE also did not…..call me on the house phone to remind me to wake up early in the morning to pray…….

He also did not…..text me nor email me to tell me that I need to make extra sacrifices for Him…..

HE also did not….fix the issues within my immediate family, that has gone on for the last 6 – 7 years……

HE also did not….. allow my mind to forget all the hurt that I have experienced from family and friends…..

HE also did not…..relocate me to the place of my choosing……..

HE also did not …. allow my father and grandmother to live longer per my request….

HE also did not ……heal my mother from some of her afflictions….

HE also did not…. deliver me out of my current Wilderness…….

Regardless of God NOT doing the things that I have asked or wanted from Him…. the real question is why and when will I start doing the things that HE asks from me???? YES!! This question can be geared toward all of us….

So with that being said… we should always wake up and go to bed saying to The Lord…….

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God Laughs At Me Daily…..


I have to give myself reality checks at LEAST 15 times a day… Sad thing about that statement is that I am so serious and I am trying my best to get that number down to ZERO!! LOL

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This is what I picture God saying to me…. EVERY TIME that ” I TRY TO ” fix things on my own!  The more wisdom that He blesses me / grants me / exposes me with – the more that I think that I am his assistant! I know that I can do NOTHING without Him but I am just very hard headed sometimes…….. Welp, maybe this is why I grant my kids (my teenagers ) with MAJOR GRACE when they act crazy and think that I am STILL SUPPOSED to “see about them”……