I Remember When…

I bury my money in the back yard, the BUCKWILD way.

I remember when I was little and me and my brother used to hide money in yards when we were little… those were the days and LIFE seemed so much easier….  Waking up every Saturday morning and trying to find all of the places that we hid our jars filled with money made it so fun!! We also found out that some of the jars that we end up finding were placed there by our dad!!

So you can imagine – how exciting these weekends were! LOL

Now looking at the record player brings back MASSIVE memories as well, especially when my daddy bought my very first album!

The Postal Service release a long-awaited new song to help us through the dead of winter. Stream it on Buzzworthy now!

It was Michael Jackson’s THRILLER album and I was the happiest little girl in the world….. whew lawwd I was so loving my dad for that!! I am assuming that is why my bond seemed so strong toward his music and his life…. my daddy felt listening to Michael Jackson was safe and he did not seem to mind that I even had a crush on a boy that was at least 15 yeas older than me! RIGHT!!


He also bought me my very first poster of him as well….. My father used to catch me kissing the poster on my wall and I had tons of lipstick marks all over Michael Jackson’s lips! ( NOT TO MENTION, that I kissed him in the same spot on the poster soooo much that his lips started to rip through the paper! )….


LOL He bought me a brand new poster and told me not to do it again…. I did not listen because instead of kissing the poster with LIPSTICK….I started sneaking in my oldest sister’s make up bag and using her lip gloss and my dad’s chap stick…. LOL …. I was soo funny and thought Michael Jackson was the BEST THING since jelly shoe sandals….. LOL

Ugghhh…. oh how I miss my father who passed away……it will be 5 LONELY years February 18, 2013!!! With my birthday being TOMORROW – February 12, 2013 for me to even be writing a blog with any type of laughter is A MIRACLE….. I have not really full fledge celebrated my birthday in almost 3 years… Last year, my dark cloud started to lift and now it is COMPLETELY GONE!!!  >>>>Whew – my daddy would be even more proud of me!


How Reality Shows “Should” Be…..

Move Over Mary Mary Gospel Reality Show! LOL

I cannot wait to see this….. Dont get me wrong, seeing Mary Mary’s reality show was just simply amazing TO ME at least because it was real and reminded me of me and my oldest sister!!! It showed that CHURCH FOLK are normal and have issues as well and argue and fuss like EVERYONE ELSE!
Ask for God‘s forgivness as well as anyone else we have offended and keep our days moving!!! UGGHH! Deep folk! But my team would not be flashy via sin!

Here is their link below: ( Mary – Mary )

If I had a reality show, I see it being with a mixture of Mary Mary, with a little hint of The Braxtons Family values! Sure people will judge, but WHO CARES- LOL

Yes, I love Jesus Christ
Yes, I LIVE the life because it is a lifestyle and not a trend
Yes, I am in ministry
Yes, I am a mother
Yes, I am a businesswoman
Yes, I am professional
Yes, I have friends from ” ALL ” walks of life (not all in church)

Being diversed …working with people from various backgrounds, staying true to who you are in CHRIST and having the skin tough enough to not worry about what others think of your process and productivity is indeed ME!



MOVIE WAS GREAT……. However I would to add my little 75 cents worth…. I went opening weekend this evening with my 9 year who ASKED ME to go see it before I had even took it upon myself to advise him that we were going anyway! Yes, im sure that because of how I rear him had something to do with it…. We are indeed an “Education FIRST and play later” type of household…. So even if his teacher does not give him homework because its Friday….. Mom is STILL assignming “something to do” even if  it’s a small lesson.

Now being TOTALLY HONEST, when the previews and buzz came out via the movie I said that I was going to see it via SUPPORT because I already knew the story and God bless what they did for this country, for the black race and for the black man… The previews didnt look too good and the marketing was almost zero… there was just no great exciting hype phase to get your vains pumping to see the movie for joy more so than obligation and support. Nonetheless, I STILL DIDNT let that stop me from GOING!

red tails tw Red Tails: The Free Review

As African Americans we can ONLY hope for the best “after we have done our parts”…….. The way that I see it is, if RED TAILS cannot make at least the same amount in movie sales as it did to make….it is a disgrace.

Speaking of Movies

When a grandmother is displayed to act a fool – Tyler Perry makes millions
When black neighborhoods are being negatively displayed – John Singleton makes millions
When girlfriends and wives want a piece of the limelight – Shaunie Oneal makes millions
When young girls chase a dream but dont have no one to teach her how – Lil Wayne makes millions

The list can go on like a bad credit report…….  Negativity and Controversial things and people seem to make a huge portion of African Americans SPEND THEIR MONEY. 

If Beyonce was playing a nurse in the military tending to the wounded pilots in the movie – then what?
If Young Jeezy was playing the soldier that got captured in the movie then what?
If Rick Ross was playing a black captain in the movie then what?

If they were giving away free admission – the theatre STILL WOULDNT BE PACKED because “too many” African Americans STILL prove to their onlookers as well as themselves that they only support things that will benefit THEM.


as a people.. we ALL should honestly know “by now or have some type of clue”  and have enough sense to know that when we are supporting a black man or a black woman who is displaying true positivity that is support for ourselves as well.

See realizing this goes soul deep and not skin deep! Skin deep is finally having a black president…. soul deep is respecting the man while he is in office!

Im done….. #fornow

P.S. Go see the movie or at least just purchase a few tickets and give them away to young black kids and advise them how important THEIR history is! I cant get too upset because as a people we STILL dont do Martin Luther King Jr., Medgar Evers, Malcolm X alot of justice… let alone JESUS CHRIST!

Where is Tamar Braxton when I need her?? This is a .org and a .com situation!


just want peace….

When it comes to my family…. whew Jesus is ALL that I can seem to say… My head just stays in the clouds lately when it comes to having a REAL PLAN to “re- adjust” my family….. then I doze off on PURPOSE realizing that all of this DYSFUNCTION is in God‘s VERY HUGE HOOLY HANDS!!


I think that I have tried everything but sell my soul to the devil to fix the craziness of my family! It indeed is just a travesty to see how the different siblings, nephews, nieces and children have their own viewpoints on so many things! EVERYDAY, I think to myself what happened to the era of when I was growing up how my father always instructed the siblings to work things out etc.

There is a show on cable and the channel is called Oxygen and it has a reality show about R & B singer Toni Braxton and her sisters. I am a late bloomer to the show because I just watched a few clips of it and the most recent one displayed  HORRID fussing with the siblings.


It was crazy because they all were right in their own way but it took like forever for all of them to collectively come together to just STOP IT AND SETTLE IT! There is ONLY 1 out of the sisters who seems to always seek for peace and try to get everyone calm and remind them why they need not to fight… A light bulb came on and I saw myself in her via trying to be the peacemaker…


It would be so nice to be able to just START OVER and even shake a few people in my family to let them know that being angry and holding onto things are so not worth it… Be mad..sure!!! But having the ability to hold grudges for days…months..years..etc.. that is simply insane dont you think!


Nonetheless, I am soooooooooo tired of being the big brother…. when I am NOT even a brother…. i used to be tired of being a big sister but that area has come full circle and things have become awesome……i am tired of being the pastor of my family….the therapist…the husband to the lonely etc….


Dont get me wrong I dont mind AT ALL wearing hats REGARDLESS how silly they may be…. but the point is… well MY point is just that I have been wearing them for over 20 years and these last 6 has DRAINED the living mess out of me..


I now see what my amazing mother used to mean when she would talk about some of the things that would make her happy… she never talked about cars, houses, clothes, or jewelry…. WELL WAIT… she loves diamonds… LOL

Seriously though, she would also pray for things like peace and wisdom, joy etc..etc.. God knows I understand Mommy!