Dear ( ME )

My Current Random-Ness


When you died my whole world came crashing down On me  it seemed! I see you in my dreams,
Everywhere I look are the
Memories of you
It’s been what? 6 / 7 long years, but
It still feels like yesterday
That I lost you HERE ON EARTH but I learn everyday … That God needed you more than the Coleman Family did, but sometimes,  I just plain Ole feel selfish and want you back here with me!!

Geesh, I have soo much to shoot the breeze with you about! LOL (the politics in America would have you TICKED right about now)

I just miss you dad!

Dear ( ME )

Counseling –


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I really had a great day today while at work – sounds weird huh!! It is not like I am working my DREAM JOB and loving it! LOL ……….However, there are perks that I do get “emotionally and spiritually” behind it.

Being a drug and alcohol counselor for almost 3 years has really given me a VERY different perspective on life…. dealing with their battles of depression and a long list of mental health issues or what I prefer to call “situations” is a task that you have to really CARE about instead of looking at it as a job.
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Dealing with people who are apart of AA ( Alcohol Anonymous ) vs people who are apart of NA ( Narcotics Anonymous ) I would consider different – same “meeting concept” but different demons –

My OLD mindset was just in a black and white version of people who suffered in their addictive states…. It has its rewards but more often there is failure.Many patients are court-ordered and present problems and not seeking treatment. Many believe they don’t have a problem and are trying to beat the system. The money isn’t very good ( to my standards based on how much I give of MYSELF )………………but I do it to afford those who are serious about recovery the opportunity to learn about it in a safe environment…

Being honest… “at this moment”…….My rewards aren’t in money but in seeing people change the way they live despite having an incurable, and often fatal, condition. Sadly, more people die than live….
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Nonetheless, where I work is a faith-based program and having the ability to have God “in the mix” does help!

Dear ( ME )

Wow = Thank You


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Even when it gets hard, we should fight to never let anyone talk us out of what God has already said to us / promised us / showed us…. God never takes back what HE has said, let alone done in our lives –

With that being said – never worry about the things that are in front of you are going crazy!! ( im speaking indeed from PERSONAL EXPERIENCE ) There is nothing in the world that we are going through that God did not already forsee happening –
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It is amazing how sometimes we can have soo much authority in our very being and can hear God ever so clearly but in that same BREATH, MIND SET and TOUNGE – we will doubt Him when things seem to get a little shaky and haywire….

Think of it as a REAL relationship with a human being that is in your life that you see and talk to on a daily basis –

Your sister, brother, mother, father, nephew,niece, son, daughter, husband or wife WOULD NOT EVEN WANT TO BE BOTHERED with you anymore!
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That is the difference when you are dealing with God and people – God does NOT like the fact that WE put our relationship with Him on a rollercoaster but He seems to ALWAYS understand and waits for “us to get our acts together”……

Whew – I am a mess…..and God STILL chooses me daily!

Dear ( ME )

Movie Overdose – LOL


The Best Man Holiday movie

I have already seen this many WAY too many times that I would like to actually admit ….. ESPECIALLY since it only came out last week on Thursday….but to me it was indeed just that good…… Okay here is my theory with this movie..

Movie was INSANELY good – they need to have at least 2 more at the least then CLOSE THE STORY. Ride the wave while it is high…make Part 3 RIGHT NOW while the momentum is high and we are all watering at the mouth! (summer 2014)  Then make the 4th one with everyone READY for the story to end but do it with a big bang! ( 2016 )

Dear ( ME )

Smile! Life Can Be GREAT….


Did you know that a smile is contagious? It costs nothing to give, but reaps great rewards for both the receiver and the giver. A Smile Spreads Good Cheer!

Mother Teresa of Calcutta once said, “Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.”

It’s amazing that your simple smile can brighten someone’s day in a moment’s notice. Too often we underestimate the power of a smile. Although it may be considered the smallest act of caring and it takes little or no effort on our part, it has the power to turn a life around—in fact more than one. Like the ripple effect of a pebble tossed into a pond, your smile will spread far beyond the first person who receives it. You never know how many people will benefit because you smiled first.

Dear ( ME )

Asking God For Things –


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I asked God to take my pain away. God said, No. It is not for me to take away,
but for you to give it up. I asked God to make my dying father better 5 years ago. God said, No. His spirit was whole, his body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience. God said, No. Patience is a by-product of tribulations, it isn’t granted, it is earned. I asked God to give me happiness. God said, No. I give you blessings, Happiness is indeed up to you.

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 I asked God to spare me pain in regards to my my 11 year old’s father being an absentee father and 20 year old twin kids wordly actions. God said, No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow. God said, No. You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. God said, No. I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.
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I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as he loves me. God said…….. Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!!!!